Its Almost Over
Last paper on Tuesday 5pm! But it seems I’m not even giving my best for it. Shit.
"I don’t know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody."
— Bill Cosby
Nauseous
Today was perhaps not a good day.
Presentation early in the morning. My group didnt help by reaching there on time to set up thus causing the teacher to pms. With our teacher in pms mode, our presentation didnt do too well. I got reprimanded by showing a banner example which was a poster. wtf.
anyway, let bygones be bygones but right after class, we had to submit some summary thing! and i wasnt done with my part. ): so had to chiong chiong, and when i finished, i submitted the summary online! but a groupmate told me today was the deadline for smth else. >.<
so after school i went to Safra to play snooker alone.
I feel so sick ): I havent jogged in a while, carried my weights, turned on my 360, hugged my mom and actually had the time to catch up with friends. As Im typing this, my head feels really heavy even waking up after a 2 hour nap. Gosh, am I sick? ): now would definitely not be a good time. There’s so much to do… ):
P.S. I really need to get me some new shoes (:
Courage
“Courage is not the lack of fear, but the ability to face it.”
Finally I do have time for tumblr. Been really busy with school these days, assignments and all. Human Resource and Corporate Comm is not an easy elective . /: Don’t have school every thursday so I’m really happy with that (: I was able to catch up with my sleep as well as lie around at home doing nothing.
Its ironic how I look forward to every Friday now. A few weeks back, I always dreaded electone class and was afraid my teacher would start nagging again to practice.
However, a few weeks ago, I really started looking forward to fridays. Why? I’m not gonna say cause it’s a secret. Im just gonna say I dont really cherish the moments well enough to take any course of action. /: oh well, hopefully tomorrow would be a better attempt. (I didnt even make any attempts previously ): )
I guess thats all, still have loads to do. Peer teaching notes, presentations, projects, guess I’ll just have to pull through. Would really wish my GPA would increase this semester!
P.S. Ivan fighting!
Cherish
This morning I was moved.
There was this cup of milk left in the fridge because my brother poured but had stomach ache so he didnt drink it before he left for school. It was kept in the fridge.
The next day, when my brother is still unwell, I thought I would have to drink it. (You know how milk gets different taste after its out of the carton for quite some time) My grandfather asked me: Shi ni de ma? I was like yeah, shi wo de (giving the dont-want-to-drink-face). I was expecting him to hand the cup to me but no, he said: Bu yao jing, ah gong he. Then he poured me a fresh cup. (‘:
Im really afraid those around you will have to go one day cause no one close to me has really left. So Im really afraid and I dont know how to fully cherish it. I’ll probably regret it when it comes..
Not dead yet
If you think my tumblr was dead, ive left you disappointed. (:
Its week 5 of school now and I quite like my class. Speaking of my class, I got a Birthday Cake from them surprisingly! So awesome! (: 2B02 <3
I thank friends and relatives for the many wishes! I’m finally 18! Boo-Yeah! :D Gonna get my driver’s license then can drive my Dad’s car with my bro in the wee hours of morning! Heh heh (:
Anyways, I’ve been quite slack thats why I need to end here to chiong my homework and project. Bye guys! (:
Second Thoughts
Have I thought about the consequences of others when performing a single action would just be for my benefit, my good?
Apparently not.
I realised friendships have been broken, greater conflicts have surfaced and they probably would not be the same as before. For this, I am unable to undo but definitely in regret. Sorry would not heal anything, thus, I promise to give more thoughts in my actions before recklessly affecting others again.
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The sacrifice I made today was one I would not regret nor hate. I just had to; greatly because I had hurt a friend that is very dear to me which I am still unable to forgive myself for.
No matter how disadvantaged a group I am in, I would never abandon friends again. With my new HRM group, I will give my best wherever, whenever.
I know you might still be angry for me over the matter. I should have at least done something to defend you in your position or to join you, but at that point in time, I was too selfish. It is uncertain to me if you would read this, but Wilson, I am truly sorry.
P.S. Selena told me you never knew who would read your blog. (:
PMO
I hate it when people say they’re the best when they know they’re not. Well, I guess they are giving themselves false hope. (:
Enough said.
Not like everyone else
HRM lecture today. Comments? It was okay but the lecturer was really boring. Wanted to sleep, Zzzz.
Saw someone at Biz Park today. Bad memories stream through my mind. Though she didn’t see me (glad she didn’t), I disappeared as soon as possible. Just wished things had worked out fine last time. /:
I really need to prioritise things now. Things that need do be done, things that I utmost intent to do, things that would affect my present and my future, I need to do it now. The need to make up for my past.
